My surgery got rescheduled to next Monday due to a hospital scheduling issue. I reassured my doctor, saying, "That's okay; it gives me more time to get stronger!" To be honest, I felt a sense of relief – who really wants to undergo surgery? Moreover, I find myself more vulnerable than I initially admitted. Postponing it by a week has allowed me some breathing space.
I am making a conscious effort to maintain a positive attitude and be stronger than I currently am.
It is a delicate balance between feeling vulnerable and fostering a positive attitude. It might seem effortless. There are infact moments that it is taking a great deal of effort.
Here’s my approach:
First, I openly acknowledge and accept my vulnerability without judgment. It's perfectly okay to feel uncertain.
Next, I am practicing positive self-talk (you should hear me in the shower!). I am trying to remind myself of my strengths and my resilience! And I am telling myself over and over that my vulnerability is temporary!
I am also reaching out and leaning on my support network. And
I don’t take for granted the unwavering support shown by friends, family, doctors and coworkers! Many tears have been shed, but I've come to recognize vulnerability as an opportunity for personal growth. It's okay to feel this way, and I believe I'll be okay.
Reflecting on this journey, I see understanding challenges as a significant victory. Bouncing back is a wonderful feeling, and maintaining a positive attitude helps me navigate difficulties with strength.
A friend shared this article in The New York Times, written by Rabbi Sharron Brous that resonated with me. If you haven’t read it, please click on this link. It is truly wonderful!
I hope we take the time to learn from each other. Taking it one day at a time!